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Being Demisexual - 2 (vibe-sexual)

Also many think that Demisexuality is when you don't care how you look or how smart you are. No, that does not mean I don't look at everything else. But I might not be attracted or be able to connect unless there is an emotional warmth that I feel. There are several good looking, smart men, but how many of them make you "feel" comfortable?.

I might have a type I am physically attracted to. But if there is no emotional bond, or when the talks are just empty hollows, it wouldn't matter if you are the most handsome man on earth. You might be a multi millionaire, but if you can't be humble and warm, or someone who simply looks for trophies to fuck, then it would burn me to be physically intimate with you. You might be the next Einstein, who crack the codes of the universe. I would appreciate your knowledge, don't get me wrong, but if you were aloof and outwordly, It would still make me feel disconnected. At the end, it all comes to the "vibe" of you. If that's not called Demisexual, let me call it "Vibe"-sexual.

When you are Vibe-sexual, you simply look at the person as a "whole", the warmth and the secure feeling that they bring through their presence. Even when I kept looking at the physical preferences, I think I go for someone who would be visibly protective. May be mental stimulation is the last thing I am looking for, as I have been doing that myself for years now. I would look for someone who can emotionally anchor me or stimulate me.

Coming to those I had dated in the past, its that one thing that really mattered to me. How they treat themselves, the people around them, and me. How we split is something to do with morality. Coming to think of it, may be one of them I took at face value. It hurt enough. The logic however is simple. How you treat others, matters. What matters more? Intention. Which, the "vibe" first picks up.


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