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Etiquette

The thing about indian gay men is that we lack etiquette of how to talk to each other. May be I am stating the obvious here. We are blunt and crass. Even the well-read. The well-read quality men can choke you with their love or cut you down instantly. Having said that, being "nice" has become a huge liability. I have the habit of being "nice" to those who compliment my blog, which follows by "I like you" from their end, when they clearly like my words, they hardly know who I am!

You talk to someone who is well-read, they take it in their mind that I would have to "take it forward" with them quickly, and don't understand that I would like to keep my anonymity intact. I would love to talk to you, I would love to discuss, but if you want to "take it forward", I would have to run away. It is hard to explain them.

Then there had been that one "well-read" guy whom I was interested in, but he simply stopped texting because I was Bisexual. It made me wonder how I could have not been straight forward, gotten a bit more close, and revealed it slowly sometime later. But, its better to cut it off in the start than to have invested my time based on lies. I took it sportive, but the way he shut me off, was quite unpleasant.

Guys sometimes push me to a corner, asking me if I can be their "friend", but the intentions are clearly more than that. "Can we be friends?", "yes". "Can you kiss me when we meet?", "lol. no" (do you want to get your ass kicked?).This is how conversations escalate. "Nice blog", "thanks", "so share your pics", "when I comfortable", "I would loose interest in you if you don't share your pic", "By all means". Yes. Two can play hard to get.

"Nice blog", "thanks", "*random self introduction*", "Nice to know", "I like you. I have a good heart", "Well, okay. Nice to know", "your whatsapp number?", "Umm. Anonymity", "*disappears*". Disappearing being the best part. If they persist, I would rather not comment. Is this how we behave with girls? (straight ones), is this how we like to be treated?

I am no exception, sometimes, I am as blunt as I could be. I may not choke people with love, but with sarcasm, and if I like you a lot, I would be annoying you (never works, but hey, you can;t handle the annoying me, you don't get the nice me). In fact, if I am nice and civil to you, it means I don't like you that much. If I am annoying you, I might be testing your patience, after that, if you get through it, I would genuinely be caring and nice. A wall of etiquette, a wall of annoyance and then comes the kingdom of care.

No, I am not the "catch me if you can" wannabe queen, who wants to parade with a crown (some say I sound like one), may be I am just prudent asshole.


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