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Its not Okay - Part 1

This happened when I had split with my old pal. I felt used by him and it hurt me a lot, after a month, I moved on to live peacefully. But, I got a text from a random person. He seemed troubled and he needed help. Only to know that he was one of my old pal's victims. I remembered the whole scenario, a wealthy guy from the US whom my friend had befriended, and he told me about him. I was pretty happy to make friends and said I would like to join when they meet. but, my friend cautiously had avoided me from meeting him. Which I didn't understand back then.

Later on he came to me and told how wealthy the other guy was, and I saw greed in his eyes. He would lie to me and secretly go on dates with this guy (which I came to know later through him). He would tell me about how they have cyber sex after he had returned back to the US, for which I would cringe. Infact, he went on claiming that cyber sex is the safest, as he cannot contact any diseases. I still felt that one need not stoop so low. 

He asked the guy to get him gifts, for which he obliged. and I was excited to meet my best friend's boyfriend. But, Dobby clearly avoided us from meeting, in person or online. As he clearly knows the minute I see him, I would know that he isn't Dobby's type at all. A few days later he said that the relationship has gone sour, but that they are on a break. 

By then, he got another guy, who was wealthy and in town (the real reason for the relationship to go sour), he was clearly cheating behind his back, but I gave him the benefit of the doubt. As this went on, until he abruptly stopped speaking with him. But had not officially broken up. I asked him to break up and see other men, as he would still be waiting for him to come back. But he didn't care for my words. The poor guy, still was!


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