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The Man whom I forgot

Recently with JK, when I was speaking with him, he was upset that I was speaking about my ex, although my exes have been majorly two, there was this guy with whom I went out with. It was highly boring, that even writing a post about him isn't something I want to.

But, I don't want to not talk about him, as he did play a part in my life. He was very sweet, infact, it was more of me trying to save him from the clutches of my old pal, Dobby. The thing that really made me curious was that he was a virgin. My old pal wanted to take his virginity, for he had a shapely "adonis belt", just by "speaking" with him, and leave him after he is done. I felt pretty bad, as he was 27 and a virgin, and I can very much relate to him, looking for someone special to share the special moment.

As I started speaking to him out of concern, I didn't let out the actual fact, yet I had to make it seem casual. But he got really upset by it, as I sounded too forward. And we didn't speak for the longest time. But after he came back to town, we patched up. But then I wanted to meet, but he wanted a date. I accepted.

I made the date very special. I asked him what he likes, and he took him to an ice cream shop, we went for a nice walk at a nice place and I took him for a ride in my bike. We then went to my place and made out. To me it was very special, but the 27 year old baby was too much to handle. But I still felt something could be worked out. But all I got was a lot of excuses and drama, a lot of  judgement. To a point I got fed up. But I still stood strong.

Issue started when I took him for a video project, and he complained that I didn't let his "diva" shine. I told him clearly that professionally I cannot let the video out. He felt insulted and broke up with me. Honestly, I felt relieved. After a week, he wanted to get back, and I explained him how I took so much effort to make his day special, when we went on a date and asked if he could plan a date for me, and if I like it, I would take him back.

It was a disaster. He planned nothing. He asked me to come to the mall, and he had absolutely no plan. Then he decided to take me to the same place I took him, and I told him that I am not gonna take him there in my bike. I was already upset by how he had treated me in the past, I played the Diva this time. He finally ended up taking me to a spa, while I clearly am not a "spa" person. He tried to win me back with money, but all I wanted was a well planned date. I told him clearly that it wouldn't work out. Also, the fact that he stayed a virgin was not because he was waiting for someone special, but was using it as some crown to those who "handle" him. I wished him good luck and we parted ways.

Many months later he tried to keep in touch, but I was already in a relationship back then with SDev. Plus, the feelings I had for him had gone completely, that I didn't feel like texting him thereafter.



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