Being Closeted Indian Gay

When you really connect with someone who is going to get married and has a fiance, and he says "if only had we met before", isn't something you just take. I was adviced by more than couple of gay friends and Bi friends who said that Gay relationships are not trust worthy, that you should get married and settled down with a girl. At this juncture in life, marriage is a long way to go, yet, those of you who like you, love you and care for you being married or engaged doesn't give a great feeling about it. Things that I feel when a gay guy gets married. Its a Sham - A couple of guys have approached me that I be their "partner", while they are married. I honestly felt bad for the girl. While she exclusively loves him and waits for him to give her attention, he goes around with guys or a guy, to quench his thirst, sexually or otherwise. Being taken for granted - It feels like that one guy is taking the girl for granted, that she deserves only this and no

There are certain things which you think you would never do in your lifetime, but then the circumstances push us to it. Something like that happened in the past week. I ended up meeting a guy, very sweet guy who loved me to the core, he had honey for words and passion in his eyes. We had a great time, we spoke for a hours as if its just ten mins. We both felt it, that we liked each other, and he proposed. I rejected, or pretended to. Because I loved him, but it wouldn't work out. This guy came to me, while planning a date with his fiance. Yes, he was about to get engaged. He apparently just decided to date me for a hookup, but things turned serious as he said that he was falling for me. If only. if only he had not said all that. It was painful, but then I hid it, I was trying to be understanding, because, I loved him. We both shared about each other a lot, and then he only asked me to stay with him and be his lifelong "friend", while he gets married. Not the first ti