Being Closeted Indian Gay

When there is this guy, whom you have a feeling is gay/bi. You kinda text him every once in a while cose you find him hot, and then one of your friend has seen him on Tinder, you kinda keep your hopes when you text him, especially when he texts back so well and holds a conversation (although its mostly about fitness, and you being a foodie dread the topic). Everything seems to be going so well, and you imagine things in your head, and he drops the "Bro" bomb! I don't know why all these straight men have started "Bro"ing each other, and one of my exes used to hate it, and now I know why. Its such a turn off when the guy you like simply makes you a "Brother" cose you know, you are a man!. I am guilty of "Bro"ing a few guys if they do sniff up to me. Its like a clear yet indirect way of saying "I am not into you", in fact, even gay men use it quite often. "Dude", "Man", "Bro", as if that makes you all...

As a closeted Bisexual, I feel that I am not understood. I am not understood by both gay men and Straight. May be because being Gay is portrayed in a way that I am not and it is hard to fit in. When I went to meet a gay friend of mine, He made me wear make up and I just wanted to throw up. I didn't want to dance bharathnatiyam, nor do I enjoy "classical" music of any sort. I don't watch "Ru paul's drag race",  nor do I always pout for the selfies. I don't want to dress up and giggle and I don't have "Girl" friends. I dont like to be referred as "She" nor will I want to refer a man as "She". May be the only thing that I feel is the same with another gay guy would be the fact that both of us want to be with a man. And having said that, I want a Man, who would have the attributes of a man. No, that does not make me a girl, no I don't want to behave like one too. I am not so expressive and I am not dramatic. I don...