Skip to main content

Doctor with Dobby eyes - 4

I had tried to move away, but he was persistent. I had been hurt by the lies and the face he has put up to impress me. I had asked him to stop all this and to be with himself. To establish a good relationship and a strong bond before trying to move to men for sex by faking a relationship. He agreed. That is when I got into a relationship with another guy. The Doc was devastated. He cried, drank, clingy as he can be. I cared for him. Gave enough attention that he doesn't move bad. Stood by his side and gave him support. But it was too late. He secretly dated guys, was flirting with men as if he wants to get into a relationship. A naive guy from the US got emotionally attached to him, while he was romancing with a guy in chennai. I did not know about the Chennai guy, but I had to tell the guy from the US that the doc is not as naive as he seems. The US guy, smitten with love, didn't understand. But, I felt that I did what had to be done. It was then that I had a bad break up (Which I will write on later), and was broken. Dobby took me to a club, where he introduced me to KD..

KD, the son of a big business man in town, was committed (With even a tattoo). Apparently an open relationship. Dobby explained to me that he was a good friend. fucked up, apparently. Dobby kept the guys he liked in private from me. He didn't want the other guy to ignore him for me. I also made it a point not to entertain this. If he likes a guy, I would never see him in that light (well, that was a whole list of prospective men though).

Dobby was more than happy to introduce me to KD when I was committed. But when I broke up, he saved KD to himself. I had no intentions of stealing anyone from him, although he behaved that way. May be all I wanted was to hang out with his friends, but making sure that I am his best friend and wouldn't let anyone else close to me. For this, I didn't make conversation with any of his friends other than while hanging out. But, Dobby had no values...

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

End of a time

It's been so long since I wrote. But then when I see people read my blog, and say how much they relate. It compels me to write more. I thought that I don't have much to write anymore. Same old issues, same old stories. I even didn't want to write thinking that the issues I mentioned would probably dilute the matter with too many posts. But then I write today because something recently struck me hard. A conversation with a love interest who is looking for a partner, realized that I talked a lot about my previous love .Which I didn't know was so obvious. But I clearly didn't move on. After may be discussing for a whole hour, he asked if I am looking for a lover or a partner? Because you don't have much time until you spend time loving someone who may never be your partner. That's when I realized that I for all these years, haven't had a proper romance, and I am already out of that age. I am old enough to settle down and look for a partner, instead of
3 comments
Read more

Being Married

When you really connect with someone who is going to get married and has a fiance, and he says "if only had we met before", isn't something you just take. I was adviced by more than couple of gay friends and Bi friends who said that Gay relationships are not trust worthy, that you should get married and settled down with a girl. At this juncture in life, marriage is a long way to go, yet, those of you who like you, love you and care for you being married or engaged doesn't give a great feeling about it. Things that I feel when a gay guy gets married. Its a Sham - A couple of guys have approached me that I be their "partner", while they are married. I honestly felt bad for the girl. While she exclusively loves him and waits for him to give her attention, he goes around with guys or a guy, to quench his thirst, sexually or otherwise. Being taken for granted - It feels like that one guy is taking the girl for granted, that she deserves only this and no
1 comment
Read more

Why I don't fit in the gay world

As a closeted Bisexual, I feel that I am not understood. I am not understood by both gay men and Straight. May be because being Gay is portrayed in a way that I am not and it is hard to fit in. When I went to meet a gay friend of mine, He made me wear make up and I just wanted to throw up. I didn't want to dance bharathnatiyam, nor do I enjoy "classical" music of any sort. I don't watch "Ru paul's drag race",  nor do I always pout for the selfies. I don't want to dress up and giggle and I don't have "Girl" friends. I dont like to be referred as "She" nor will I want to refer a man as "She". May be the only thing that I feel is the same with another gay guy would be the fact that both of us want to be with a man. And having said that, I want a Man, who would have the attributes of a man. No, that does not make me a girl, no I don't want to behave like one too. I am not so expressive and I am not dramatic. I don
Post a Comment
Read more