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Masculinity Quotient - MQ

The Biggest paradoxes of the Gay world can be broken down with this simple Measure. The MQ. Masculinity Quotient, I feel is the the way the guys carry themselves. "Straight Acting", in normal terms. It is as if the MQ determines whether a guy is Bi, Gay, Straight or Trans. And the MQ is directly proportional to the Desirability.

Being someone who has not been called names or commented on for being effeminate, I would say that my MQ is kinda high. Unless of course, I meet a hunky macho, whose MQ is higher to mine. My MQ drops. It drops to the point it becomes apparent. My guard goes off, and then comes the condescending looks. It became very apparent to me, with my last relationship. The guy whom no one would guess to be gay, I would get weak on the knees and a different persona comes out, when I was with my guy.

Let's face it. even straight men go soft when they are with their lady love, and I have wished that some guy was like that with me, but when they do, Turn off. I realized (a harsh one) that when men with high MQ become soft, I loose interest. Also the fact that when my MQ goes down, The other guy gets uncomfortable. For someone who is closeted, and has a partner, its a crucial point. When my man is soft in the bedroom, it is still fine. Socially, it is still a taboo. Although this is clearly Hypocrisy, I would rather admit it. I wish my partner did not mind my MQ getting low in his presence, it simply means I am highly attracted to him. It is definitely hard to control the spacey- high feeling being with the loved one. But when the partner looses his MQ, which is supposed to be sweet, I get jittery and I get turned off.

I don't know if we all face this issue, but as for someone who, without a doubt would confess that I like men with high MQ, {who could be a versatile bottom(!)}, I wish I could be a bit more open and accepting. It is not that I haven't tried. But it has not worked out so far. What do you guys think?

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