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Doctor with Dobby eyes - 5

Sometimes I wish I was not that naive, in fact, I was not. I confronted him for not being emotional, and to stop playing with people's emotions. I didn't want to be too hard on him. I wanted to trust him. But that did not happen. He would secretly date and flirt with men, try to win their heart. He liked the chase. When the guys fall, he would ask them accordingly. If they were rich, he would ask for a date and go to fancy restaurants. If they were hot, he would sleep with them. If they were naive, he would romance with them. In a way, in the name of friendship, I had to drive him around. I would tell him everything that happened, from Kel to Sean. What he did  with his men, only the part where they "Fell" for him would come out, all the effort he took to get them, will not.

Until I met KD at the pub, I thought he was just a good friend to Dobby. But the way KD behaved it was obvious that there was more to it. For someone who doesn't drink, I was watching everything, How he was given special attention and all the tricks KD played to get him. The player was being played. Karma, I guess. As a friend I tried to warn him. But the money that KD spent on Dobby, as I could see that day, was enough to hook him. Truth be told, I wish he was not as bad. But, I had observed it all. and the Truth sunk in. "Why was I feeling awful after meeting him?", I asked myself. 

I went back from the club and thought about it, something was not right. I texted Dobby, confronted him. finally until he confessed. KD and Dobby were dating!. while I thought Dobby was dating a guy in Chennai, and promising the US guy to settle down with him. I felt helpless. A mutual friend, I had to open up about this, he told me that its his life and can do whatever he wants. I guess, I was just too concerned. It was apparent to me that He and I can no longer be friends. I am not at all perfect. I may have done mistakes, but I would never hurt anyone intentionally or be someone I am not. I gave him a piece of my mind, and "ghosted" on him. I guess writing this piece gives me peace of mind, as whomever I knew were okay with it. for some reason, I am not!



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