For all of you out there. The Gay world is haphazard. Very few I see have come in terms with themselves and have lived a meaningful life. I wish to see more that way. Being Bi, Gay or Trans is not something that we need to be ashamed of, instead, I invite you to make meaning out of it. Something that gives me hope, would be that.
Going through countless profiles, dreaming, getting disappointed, the loneliness and the ache when you are not accepted. For someone who is closeted, the pain is as real. Sometimes you wish you could just come out and be okay with it, but the scene in the Gay world is not so inviting. Seeing a couple of my friends who are openly gay, they lead a life that makes me wonder if I would ever want to take such a decision. and the worst part is that, its not their fault at all!. In fact, they are the saviors (as long as they came out because they made meaning and not because it was apparent). To hide a part of your identity, however small, is a task.
I was told that the Gay relationship need not be heteronormative. I wouldn't know how many would agree to this, but for me Gay is "Normal" as much as a heterosexual relationship. To be Monogamous is not about the gender, but the respect you give to the other person. It is about going deep inside the ocean of the person and when you are smitten by them, the fascination only grows. To respect and be with one person and to passionately get to know him, to be surprised by the similarities or compatibility and to accept the differences of one person, and to evolve and be evolved by the other is worth all this wait. When we set our standards, we don't settle for anything less. We strive and change and break our heads. When we find him, it all makes sense. Wait till then and whine, cose those days are over!
Going through countless profiles, dreaming, getting disappointed, the loneliness and the ache when you are not accepted. For someone who is closeted, the pain is as real. Sometimes you wish you could just come out and be okay with it, but the scene in the Gay world is not so inviting. Seeing a couple of my friends who are openly gay, they lead a life that makes me wonder if I would ever want to take such a decision. and the worst part is that, its not their fault at all!. In fact, they are the saviors (as long as they came out because they made meaning and not because it was apparent). To hide a part of your identity, however small, is a task.
I was told that the Gay relationship need not be heteronormative. I wouldn't know how many would agree to this, but for me Gay is "Normal" as much as a heterosexual relationship. To be Monogamous is not about the gender, but the respect you give to the other person. It is about going deep inside the ocean of the person and when you are smitten by them, the fascination only grows. To respect and be with one person and to passionately get to know him, to be surprised by the similarities or compatibility and to accept the differences of one person, and to evolve and be evolved by the other is worth all this wait. When we set our standards, we don't settle for anything less. We strive and change and break our heads. When we find him, it all makes sense. Wait till then and whine, cose those days are over!
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