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The changeovers - 1

We all know that puberty is a changeover that we all go through. But changes sometimes for us are mandatory to find someone we love, and feel worthy of their love. I remember how I dreaded the way I looked. I was fat, as a high school student, A nerd. Specs, books and plain shirts. All I could think was some magical transformation or people who took me for who I am. But the truth was far from that. I was rejected, ignored and even forgotten. The personality that I had built inside my head gave good company only to me.

All those who claim to be Sapiosexual or anyone else they claim to be, at the end of the day fall for your "personality". Personality that they lack or they have in ample. I don't remember the last time anyone took someone who doesn't have a personality, seriously. Then I realized that I had to work on myself in every way if I wanted someone to respect me and take me seriously. At least in the gay world. 

As days went by I worked on myself. May be at first I thought it was for other people, but then I wanted to do it for me. My first boyfriend did the favor of loving me for my mind, but to keep him, I had to build a personality, which I lacked. I have changed over the years, with every rejection, with every break up, I didn't break, I changed. I wished that one day all those who rejected me, who ignored me, who didn't pay attention or showed interest, turn back and look what they missed. This again, I wanted for myself. My self worth didn't deter from their comments, but I simply projected it with my personality, slowly and steadily. I respect those I see who have changed themselves better and made themselves desirable.

I don't believe that having a nice body, or a pretty face, or even the confidence is what personality just stands for. The silver lining is the character. To hook up with someone, you need a good body. To be someone's date, you need an interesting mind. To live in, with someone, you need financial independence. To be with someone and keep them, you need a solid character. You might be a prince charming, but without a good character, you might as well be a pain to your close ones at the end of the day. 


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