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Bromance - 2

The Bromance has been dull as F. The timing has been off with us, I get trained by his trainer and I get home panting everyday, for the reasons I don;t want to. Now this muscle boy doesn't care a shit about me except for a surprised "hey" every time he sees, I try to keep the cool, i have enough eye candy in the gym to give me company. all the college brats with their huge arms and broad shoulders. Not to forget the cute twinks trying lift weights.

After two days of mutual exchange of pleasantries, I finally decided to text him why he hasnt' come to train me. I made it sound casual and he goes "come early, bro". And then I go late as usual, but I see him working out. I don't know why but I get so shy and introverted around him. But then he comes to me and makes corrections.

Well, he aint the trainer there, but he does train a few guys there apparently, I would prefer his trainer to train me as that guy is actually very good, but then I wanted the muscle boy to teach when I need some motivation. one good thing about the gym being its too dingy for people to actual notice the other. which seems good. So while I thought he and I are not happening, he comes behind me and taps my ass with both his hands. I was turned off and turned on at the same time. (not really into getting spanked).

Later on, I go to this trainer asking him to give me more routines, and he asks the muscle boy to train. He grabs my hand subtly and asks me to come. But then the trainer goes "well, never mind, I'll train"... After some heavy work out, where I can hardly stand, I leave the gym, and there he is standing near the door. "so, Are you tired?", "Well... Kinda"... and then I leave.

Honestly, something is off. I hardly feel anything anymore. I guess I lost interest because he has no balls make a move, when I kinda have a feeling he is into me. Well, I don't know if I should make any more moves. Wait, I didn't make either, should I?

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