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The real success?

One of my open friend had shared about his life and its happenings in one of the radio programs and He shared its write up to me. He had been open at the age of sixteen and had gone through many hurdles. Rite now he is around 24, single. Goes to parties every week end and has casual sex. Now there are other guys I know who have been open, and lead the same life style at various ages. But that is when I realized that I do not want a lifestyle like that. It is not him who doesn't want to settle down, but the fact that he is happy with those random guys, in plenty, who flirt with him and want to sleep with him, is a place I wish I never go. I say this not in a judgmental way, but out of care and agony.

As I read through the lines, the similar situations were many more. Those guys who have been taunted at school and those who had to come out at a young age. Sexual taken advantage of, and end up accepting that as their fate. They flirt with many, they fall for some, some fall for them, they dont accept. In that interview, he gave out a positive side, posed as if everything is okay, but I know that he is not.

On the other hand, I met a guy for coffee. Very interesting story of his. A Bottom, who is married with two kids, has an open relationship with two other married men. He has a family that he loves, and he is closeted to them. His "Boy friends" are known as his "Close friends" to whom he talks to every day at office. And he manages to keep the romance alive with both.

Now I see, an openly gay guy, who doesn't have anyone to call as his (not just one, quiet a few I have seen), and then I see a closeted gay man, who is married for the sake of it, lives a normal life, with ample romance for two guys. I don't know which is the real success here. The guy who is open yet lonely, or the one who pretends and has two guys to be with.


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