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A friend of mine, who is effeminate, I am attracted to him,  but certain things he does and certain ways he speaks makes me feel uncomfortable. Most Open Gay men are okay with it, they infact feel belonged to it. Truth be told, I am very uncomfortable around them. But as I search around, I realised that with some people I end up being so restless. Especially those who are manly, I get so shy and childish. The biggest realization was when Sdev suddenly became so effeminate with me, and I was with my friends. I was so uncomfortable, yet I didn't show it as he was then my boyfriend and I had to be okay with it. Incidentally, with everyone else he is very macho, while with me, he would get shy and childish, he would flip his hair and act all "sassy". At one point, we had a prolem as I acted childish around one of "straight" friends (who is hot!)and he felt disgusted.

I recently tried to set up two guys (who wanted to date me, but I thought they'll be a good pair), but the match making didn't work, as one of them was a bit too "Childish". May be that's how we men show our love. Even with straight guys , I have seen them go soft and corny with their girl friends, but girls find it cute. In case of two men, I guess it puts off.

This is some kind of hypocrisy we all hold.We need a man to be vulnerable and childish with, we need a MAN who will be okay with us getting "Giggly and sassy", band that is something that we expect the MAN to be okay with. If the same MAN, gets giggly and Sassy we don't accept it. Even to the point that if he gets too sassy even during a point in the relationship, it becomes so uncomfortable. 


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