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Dating the Demi God -1

Those were the days when I had been desperate enough to let go. Kel and I were still in touch, as friends and He asked me to move on. He was quite close to "his girl" now, he would fast for her and her well being. By this time, I was just happy for him. One fine day, I felt that I should quit all this and concentrate on myself. So I did. For a week. The pull to find someone was still high. I remember Kel asking me to move on and I thought I'll give it a try. Out of curiosity, I joined Tinder. I swiped the men whom I might be interested in. There came the DemiGod. S DevD.

S Dev, was a DemiGod. Hot sculpted face, broad shoulders, piercing eyes. His photography skills were amazing, traveler, loves food etc etc. We were in a way stark contrast. But the pull was real. A normal text of hey hello one day, nothing did I expect. The next day, we exchanged numbers and even had a video call. We spoke all night. The feeling was amazing, the romance was great, initially. Cute messages, videos sent across, we used to video call whenever possible. Nights ended singing lullaby at 3 am in front of the video cam. Exam nights were me studying with him doing his thing on the other side of the screen.

Even at places with no range, I would make sure I call. The texting and the calling were going on and on. We got to know about each other, or at least I thought. Dobby (who was still a friend back then had just broken up with his then love interest from the US) was pretty neutral about the whole scenario back then. There was one day, a feeling of settlement. A naive but sure feeling that I had finally found "The one". He would say that we should get married. His ring would read "Forever, Eternity, infinity and beyond", he said...


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