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Doctor with Dobby eyes - 4

I had tried to move away, but he was persistent. I had been hurt by the lies and the face he has put up to impress me. I had asked him to stop all this and to be with himself. To establish a good relationship and a strong bond before trying to move to men for sex by faking a relationship. He agreed. That is when I got into a relationship with another guy. The Doc was devastated. He cried, drank, clingy as he can be. I cared for him. Gave enough attention that he doesn't move bad. Stood by his side and gave him support. But it was too late. He secretly dated guys, was flirting with men as if he wants to get into a relationship. A naive guy from the US got emotionally attached to him, while he was romancing with a guy in chennai. I did not know about the Chennai guy, but I had to tell the guy from the US that the doc is not as naive as he seems. The US guy, smitten with love, didn't understand. But, I felt that I did what had to be done. It was then that I had a bad break up (Which I will write on later), and was broken. Dobby took me to a club, where he introduced me to KD..

KD, the son of a big business man in town, was committed (With even a tattoo). Apparently an open relationship. Dobby explained to me that he was a good friend. fucked up, apparently. Dobby kept the guys he liked in private from me. He didn't want the other guy to ignore him for me. I also made it a point not to entertain this. If he likes a guy, I would never see him in that light (well, that was a whole list of prospective men though).

Dobby was more than happy to introduce me to KD when I was committed. But when I broke up, he saved KD to himself. I had no intentions of stealing anyone from him, although he behaved that way. May be all I wanted was to hang out with his friends, but making sure that I am his best friend and wouldn't let anyone else close to me. For this, I didn't make conversation with any of his friends other than while hanging out. But, Dobby had no values...


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