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Apathy

A man had died. A fellow gay man, you all ,may never know him, you all may have never heard of him, and not likely to hear of him again. He killed himself, and we all may say its due to depression, may be its apathy. He was cheated! by a guy he was very much fond of. Their story starts one and a half years back, when he was happily committed to a guy, and this old pal and him were just friends. My old pal had ways to make a conversation interesting, by exchanging information among people, what he learns from one he says to another, and then there is google. He got cozy only to leave him for another man.

He fell for the old pal who was "nice" to him. It made sense, "who cares about how he treats others, who cares if he showed no remorse? as long as he is nice to him". He fell, so bad. But my old pal had found others to comfort, leaving him alone and cold to fend for himself, my old pal warmed up to his new "friends". Btw, Happy Birthday!

A revenge was taken, for which he became a villian, but my old pal had friends for he was  "nice". They "liked" him for it. But what was shown, may be at a point even from him was "apathy". The ones who protected my old pal when he was struck and played the victim, was struck with nothing but apathy, when they told me about his demise.

Terrorism is not shooting a lot with fire, but showing no remorse when done something wrong, when reconciliation was done to impress and not from the heart. When the dreams and aspirations of one is tarnished for another. Terrorism is when you can emotionally puncture a person fair and square and be "liked" and "celebrated" nevertheless.

and this, we must see, that those who cared for the old pal, had shown apathy to the fallen. Why this hypocrisy? because he wasn't "nice" to you? or because they didn't "like" him? I believe that the only way this could be given justice is if they all leave my old pal to fend for himself the same way the fallen had to. To know the agony of being taken for granted and left alone. Yet, we live in a hypocritical world where they plan for a future in the ashes of the doomed. Apathy!

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