The Biggest challenge that I keep facing in my day to day lives is falling for straight men. I don't think I have ever tried to approach a straight guy, but there is something about them that really attracts me. The way they speak and move, and especially those I see in my gym. I also remember talking to a guy, who had fallen for his straight colleague, and how every time you wish he had the same feelings you have for him. He obviously gives him many many hints, but that doesn't work.
The story of my friend, who is soft and a "good" boy, falls for a "rugged straight" guy, who turns out to be his junior. They hang around well and his attitude and such really attracted him. Many a times he would end up teasing him about "doing it", but then it never lead to anything. Being his senior it wouldn't be appropriate to be blatant about it.
Then one day he comes to know that the guy is dating this girl and is crazy about her. "Then I slowly started avoiding him. There is no way I could have told him about my feelings now, since he has gotten serious with his girl. He kept asking me why I don't speak like before, he kept asking me if I was avoiding him, and I couldn't say much. Once, he even asked if its because he is committed. I wanted to say yes. I wanted to ask him to leave her for me, but I knew that he would choose her over me any day, Since it is clear that I was just a senior that he respected. I didn't want to be anything more than that".
One of the reasons I am apprehensive about getting close to straight men, It isnt the easiest thing. What if you fall for him, and he had a girl friend? What if I fall for him and he ends up hating me? It is a very rare scenario where two guys who met in real life share their sexual identity and end up being together. In fact, the straight guys I am friends with are those with whom I wouldn't have any feelings for. The minute I feel otherwise, I would rather move away.
I am sure many of them have been in these helpless situations. A guy whom you are crazy about, whom you care about, with whom you gel so well, cannot be together with you, just because, you are a guy!, and its not his fault that he doesn't feel the same with you.
The story of my friend, who is soft and a "good" boy, falls for a "rugged straight" guy, who turns out to be his junior. They hang around well and his attitude and such really attracted him. Many a times he would end up teasing him about "doing it", but then it never lead to anything. Being his senior it wouldn't be appropriate to be blatant about it.
Then one day he comes to know that the guy is dating this girl and is crazy about her. "Then I slowly started avoiding him. There is no way I could have told him about my feelings now, since he has gotten serious with his girl. He kept asking me why I don't speak like before, he kept asking me if I was avoiding him, and I couldn't say much. Once, he even asked if its because he is committed. I wanted to say yes. I wanted to ask him to leave her for me, but I knew that he would choose her over me any day, Since it is clear that I was just a senior that he respected. I didn't want to be anything more than that".
One of the reasons I am apprehensive about getting close to straight men, It isnt the easiest thing. What if you fall for him, and he had a girl friend? What if I fall for him and he ends up hating me? It is a very rare scenario where two guys who met in real life share their sexual identity and end up being together. In fact, the straight guys I am friends with are those with whom I wouldn't have any feelings for. The minute I feel otherwise, I would rather move away.
I am sure many of them have been in these helpless situations. A guy whom you are crazy about, whom you care about, with whom you gel so well, cannot be together with you, just because, you are a guy!, and its not his fault that he doesn't feel the same with you.
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