There was once a guy who asked "Why don't you cheat? all of them are cheaters anyway! Enjoy life, have no regrets". There are a few reasons behind it. Which I would like to open up in this anonymous forum. One, My Dad had cheated on my Mom. It is not easy for a kid to find condom packets in his dad's bag and your mom asking you not to bother about it. I know that my mom is in so much pain. I have seen her suffer. Yet, There is nothing that I could do about it.
Second, I have been molested as a kid. By a married neighbor. Sometimes, you feel like the karma of your parents come to you in one way or the other, and may be I blamed my dad for what had happened to me. But, it seemed unfair. I don't have a good relationship with my dad, ever since. I don't look at his face, nor respect him. May be that is punishment he would get. A son who has mentally disowned him.
I still feel numb about the whole thing, may be I have a lot of anger pent up against him. But that is the same anger I have with those who cheat. When I was told by a face reader, that I cannot stay with one person. I got really upset, because that is the last thing that I want to do to someone. To make them feel worthless.
I don't know if I even respect my mom after this. In fact, the fact that she has been living with him like this after knowing everything, really aches me. Interestingly, I have found out cheating relationships and I would rather retaliate and expose, which had happened sometimes purposefully and once even accidentally. Like that is the only way I can get rid of the bad karma that my dad gets into.
My mom would say, "Life is a circle, and those who cheat end up with good kids, who suffer, and grandkids who cheat, like their grand dads". To her it might sound fair, but how unfair is that?. I worry many a times, if I would end up like my dad. May be that is why I can't cheat, or "enjoy" life. No life is better than the other. No one should "enjoy" on other's cost. But that is how life is.
Second, I have been molested as a kid. By a married neighbor. Sometimes, you feel like the karma of your parents come to you in one way or the other, and may be I blamed my dad for what had happened to me. But, it seemed unfair. I don't have a good relationship with my dad, ever since. I don't look at his face, nor respect him. May be that is punishment he would get. A son who has mentally disowned him.
I still feel numb about the whole thing, may be I have a lot of anger pent up against him. But that is the same anger I have with those who cheat. When I was told by a face reader, that I cannot stay with one person. I got really upset, because that is the last thing that I want to do to someone. To make them feel worthless.
I don't know if I even respect my mom after this. In fact, the fact that she has been living with him like this after knowing everything, really aches me. Interestingly, I have found out cheating relationships and I would rather retaliate and expose, which had happened sometimes purposefully and once even accidentally. Like that is the only way I can get rid of the bad karma that my dad gets into.
My mom would say, "Life is a circle, and those who cheat end up with good kids, who suffer, and grandkids who cheat, like their grand dads". To her it might sound fair, but how unfair is that?. I worry many a times, if I would end up like my dad. May be that is why I can't cheat, or "enjoy" life. No life is better than the other. No one should "enjoy" on other's cost. But that is how life is.
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