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Falling in love with information

I used this as a social experiment, I gave out a profile which was elaborate and it went something like this, and this is something you can see everywhere in your sites, a good looking guy's picture, muscular, "medico", Globetrotter, likes wine and all the fancy things. An elaborate profile, and then if you are patient to read till the end, there is a line that says I am the opposite of all this.

Anyone reading the profile would tick his checklist and would have "love" oozing out. Several several guys had texted me and based on the information that I shared. I have had a guy claim that he is going to get into "Harvard", and then there are many many "medicos", who can't stop saying they are one. As if its a mandate.

Very few end up reading till the end, and I don';t think those who do would ever bother to text. This is not something that I realized just now. When you know that you can fairly attract crowd and you avoid it by having a blank profile, there have been guys who didn't bother to text. The same guy when you share one picture, gets interested in you. The same applies for me. Whether the profile is blank, or with meager information, or fully filled and decorated, the person on the other side is the same. We end up falling for the information about the person, and not the person himself. A real person is beyond a set of credentials.

You fall in love with a person and he is a business tycoon,
who has several debts under his head,
but a multi national company in his name,
which was made by his father while he is just a dummy CEO,
but has a private plane and a yatch,
and he has drinking problems,
spoils you with gifts and trips,
sleeps around with several men,
but claims to love you the most,
and yeah, he wants to get married to a girl someday,
but would give you the same attention as before,
but he can;t take you out in public.

With every given information, the desirability of the man changes. and there are some who are completely okay with this scenario. Now lets test your "love" towards your guy. Think of your latest crush, Would you still love him if...

He is loosing his muscles?
He is loosing his charm?
He lost his job?
He lost his arm?
He lost his fortune?
He went bald?
He lost his sanity?
his memory?
gets married to a women?
cheats on you?
lies to you?
kills a man?
becomes a woman?
loves you less everyday?
didn't love you at all?

At the end of the day, anyone can make you fall in love and out of love, just by the information that comes your way. You might be in denial of any of this, for if I tell you that the guy you love is a player and cheated on several guys, there is always a part of you that would give a benefit of the doubt. And that is why you never really "love" the person, you love just the "information" or the "idea" of the person. When the illusion shatters, your feelings would change. We are after all, human!

But now, the illusion of love and forever doesn't bother me. "I love you for the information I have about you, at this point in time", I would fall out of it, or not be fond of you any other day. I don't know if I am capable of loving someone unconditionally, such miracle has truly not happened to me until now. But, I can commit to someone, until one day an information about you makes me want to fall out of the commitment. The same would apply to you too.

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