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Close the crowd

The biggest barrier is the fact that there are so many options. our search for the perfect guy never ends. For someone who has gone through countless profiles to see if it clicks, I was disappointed. But at least I moved on. There are two types of clinging. Some cling to one person they like and crave for intimacy, and then there are those who cling to several men. May be I belong to the former and Dobby, the later. I think its better to find a middle point, that I strive to strike.

Leaving the social networking sites (occasionally used to promote the blog), was the best thing I had done. I chose a very few set of people who respect me the way I like, and those who really wished to keep in contact, and I wished to keep in contact, I left the rest of the options. I could say now that, when the time is right, you'll find the people you want anyway. Now I spend my time to understanding the people around me deeply. To make conversations that give me clarity. To be mindful about the vibes around me. And have my fair share of silly play.

When I do find the guy, I am sure I'll not have much to keep away. The least I can do is to be make it is easy for him to accept me with all my flaws. May be that's what we need to invoke. The hope for acceptance, for the sake of intimacy. 


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