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Narcissism in Gay world

Being a naive sweet potato, I felt that I can be intimate with a guy one day. I believed that I can be romatic involved with a guy more than with a girl. My love for the men in my life has been completely to one person, while I date. But I realized that I end up being with narcissist. Not all DemiGods are narcissistic but all narcissists are DemiGods. There are two type sof Narcissists, somatic and cerebral. Somatic narcissists show off their body to get attention and Cerebral narcissists show off their brains ( I feel I am one ).

I wouldn't mind admitting that I show narcissistic traits at time. Where I don't feel that intimacy, but I am working on myself for the same. The funny part is that its not their fault. Being Gay comes from a lot of self hatred and shame. You live a life beating yourself up inside, and fearing that no one will accept you. But the truth is, when you are accepted (even treated with love and affection) by the gay world, you suddenly start liking yourself. Then the part that you hated becomes the part that you adore the most. Suddenly, all the attention that you never got, makes you want more.

I see the transformation in the younger crowd. They sensitive self hating kids suddenly end up being self obsessed. They fear if they'll loose attention that they suddenly got, and end up being exploited by other narcissists. How to identify one, is the something we all need to learn!

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